Today is the one year anniversary of losing my relationship with G.

Though we did meet and talk once a few weeks ago about the last year, I still never got any clear answers about why I was released, why I wasn’t worth keeping around, why I was just let go. Today, my feelings are much better about how things played out and about her than they were during the first six months of silence, but I still hurt a little from not knowing the “why’s”- what I did wrong, what I didn’t do right, etc. I do find myself continuing to long for just the solid friendship we had in months prior to the collapse, and I still hope something of that might be restored by His grace. We made pretty good friends, I thought. But now, essentially, all is as it was left on November 17, 2011.

Yeah, I still miss you.

Lord, thank you for the graces found in passing time.

One year.