For whatever reason, I was so wasted last night.  I was in bed by 9:30 PM (which is early for me) and I slept fairly solidly until 7:00 this morning.  I’ve been dealing with sleepiness between 2 and 3 each day this week, even though I drink coffee in the morning and eat a decent sack lunch each day.  I guess my body is tired.

I also find I get home from work and any ambitious plans I had for the evening at home go out the window because my house is warm inside.  It saps me.  By the time I get it cooled down, it’s time to hit the sack.  That’s an issue for a little while longer, until fall cools things off.  Meanwhile, I am unproductive in the evenings, and that’s a waste of time.

I had such a good time seeing my nieces this weekend that if my brother has to move out of the city to take a job (a real possibility), I realize I will be very sad.  I want to see them grow up in front of me.  They are both awesome girls.  And one day soon, they will be women.

I was too tired to run yesterday.  I will be too tired to run on Thursday.  This is a low-performance week, in celebration of the Olympics I guess.

Tonight is a dance club night, but I have been feeling an emptiness to it lately.  Without some real strong relationships within the club, it is time that I should probably spend elsewhere, doing something for others.  I just feel in that place right now, where few of my relationships feel solid and are moving forward.  Which means this is a time when I need to be sowing, rather than following my normal impulse, which is to retract when friendships feel shaky or anemic.  No wonder I don’t have many close friendships.

I, again, recognize I’m not good at close friendships.  But I am trying.

I did finish Numbers this morning.  Canaan has been divvied up.  The Reubenites and the Gadites and the half-tribe of Manasseh have chosen to take land in the Trans-Jordan.  Six cities of refuge have been designated for fugitives to go to and seek justice if they have killed someone accidentally.  Moses’ work is near completion.

I thought this was an interesting verse that has relevance today in America, as well as everywhere else in the world.  Numbers 35: 23:

‘Do not pollute the land where you are. Bloodshed pollutes the land, and atonement cannot be made for the land on which blood has been shed, except by the blood of the one who shed it.’

On to Deuteronomy- “the Second Law”.