• Puerto Rico, Day 5

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    I lost grip on keeping up the blog daily yesterday. I was so tired last night I thought I would be able to recall day 5 today, and day 6 has had a slew of memories all of its own. I have a horrible memory, and have lost some of day 5. I’ll remember what I can.

    Day 5 was a great day for us, the construction team, in terms of productivity. We got all but one of the cieling zones covered with panel grids, and a start on getting panels into grids. As a group, we worked a long day (from 9:30 to 7) and felt very gratified by our progress. Because it was a work day, we came back to the lodge for the evening and debriefed in a long extended session.

    After debriefing, I talked to Dee for a bit about life concerns, and then I went to bed. I was tired. A number of people stayed up until 1:30 or so, though, playing cards. On a group level the day was great.

    On a personal level, the trip has been rewarding and rich, but in some ways an exacerbation of my inadequacies and a highlighting of my insufficiencies. Everyone in the group has been gracious and good to work with, but I was struggling before coming here with competency and confidence issues, and the last few days have been isolating. A central interest of any mission trip is to give life and encouragement to others through the sharing of faith. I have felt lost among everyone here despite their kindness, which is more a statement about where my geart is these days. I have felt more neurotic and insecure in the last few months than I have during most of the rest of my life, and unfortunately, it is an insecurity which seems to reproduce itself.

    All I know is that this heart of mine needs a lot of work.

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    A web programmer by day, I somehow still spend a lot of time thinking about relationships, God, and the significance of grace and love in daily events. I am old school in the sense that I believe in the reality of sin, and in the need of each human heart for deliverance to the Divine. I am one of those who believes that Jesus Christ is the Son of God, and that you can find most answers to life's pressing issues in Him and His Word, the Bible. I ain't perfect, and a lot of the time I ain't good, but by God's grace and kindness, I am forgiven and free.

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