I don’t know why it takes me so long to realize, and to just accept, that sometimes you love somebody, and they just don’t feel the same about you, much at all.  Who can say why.  Maybe your head isn’t shaped right for them.  Maybe you wear the wrong deodorant.  Maybe your left eye crosses some times and they can’t get passed that.  Maybe it’s your breath.  Maybe it’s the fact you always wear green.  I don’t know.  For a long time I thought we were decent friends, and were becoming better ones. But I spoke my heart, and that did it.

Sometimes you tell someone you love them and they can’t say it back, so it locks them up, and then it’s like you can take something from them, and so they have to lock you out.  They have to push you away.  Because if they choose to love you and let you know it, you might think of them in some way they don’t want to be thought of, and it is just too messy to deal with.

I don’t know.  Sometimes you love somebody, and you just have to accept that they don’t love you back.  There is some reason they can’t do it, or want do it- and all you can do is accept it and go on.

It’s hard when that’s mostly all that happens, though- you keep choosing to love people who won’t love you back.  That’s a tough road.

In other news:

• Apple announced a new iPhone app today which lets people create and then send a greeting card to someone through the mail.  The stock of American Greeting Cards and Shutterfly both fell after the announcement.
• My friend Ben and I run the Chicago Marathon in 5 days.  Yowza.  The summer comes to this.
• The Red Sox get rid of manager Francona and GM Theo Epstein may not hang around.  The Cubs have an opportunity here.  Unless Ryne Sandberg gets his shot at Wrigley.

There is One who is familiar with loving and remaining unloved.  He knows the forsaken and forgotten.  He encourages us to keep our chin up, to realize not all is lost, and to go on. “Trust in me- I am with you.”